Where do I even start? Im just so confused about everything except for the way I feel about Christine. So basically this girl has me completely wrapped around her little finger. I never knew it was even possible to love somebody this much. Everything about her just makes me fall more in love with her. Just seeing her smile on the computer not even in person makes my day. The way she looks at me, the way she laughs, the way she talks, the way she touches me, kisses me just everything about this girl is just so perfect. I mean christine really is and doesnt believe that she is the most amazingly beautiful girl in the world and im not just saying that like I really dont understand sometimes how a girl this gorgeous could be so in love with ME. She is what keeps me going through everything, my motivation, my positive attitude, keeping a smile, waking up everyday its all because of this girl that I have completely fallen for. This amazing woman has everything I ever wanted in a girl shes is incredibly sweet, lovable, gorgeous, smart, outgoing, funny, caring, understanding, and just breathtaking girl I have ever met. I will never be able to love another girl like I do with christine. Theres just no way, shes to.....perfect. Nobody could ever replace the hole she will leave in my heart if I lose her.

KOREA... ohh korea you really did it... I hate that i feel a little selfish wanting her to go with me. I know she would love to go with me but its just she has school. The thing is I know that as smart as she is she could take community college with me on base and maybe start a little bit of four year online. We woulnt be there for a lifetime or anything. She doesnt get treated the way she really deserves to be. Her dad is a complete DICK and her mom well actually i like her mom. She needs me she needs the care, love, affection, respect, and freedom she honestly deserves being as amazing as she is. I mean this girl bust her ass has two jobs and goes to school. Sometimes her parents dont even recognize how much heart this girl has. When she wants something she goes and gets it and doesnt just wait for it to happen. She might not know it but i know that if shes with me she will be happier than she has in a long time. I want to be able to treat her like the sweetie she is, like a princess. I know some things will be tuff but I dont care. We can do it and I know we could make it an amazing experience. I know for a fact that the last thing I will ever do is let this girl give up her dreams because she deffinetly more than deserves them. Yeh going with me could delay it just a little bit, and she make not think so but it would be worth it. I Know I can give her everything she needs to be happy. Ive never told her this but sometimes I dont sleep at all at night because I just cant stand the fact that I cant be there to hold her, to kiss her, to hug her, to give her that affection she needs, to make her happy, to make her relize how much of an amazing person she is, and just to straight up be there for her with anything she needs. I just hope she can see she would be better off with me. She doesnt have anyone at home that can make her feel like I will. I want her to come with me and be my wife and experience new things with me.I want to her to be by my side for everything. I want to show her how much I love her. Nobody understands christine like I do. I just cant imagine being without her for a whole year again. I cant be without her, I need her love and she needs mine. I just hope she comes with me.......is she or is she not?... Thats the question that is driving me insane. But no matter what i will never stop loving this girl with all the love I have learned to give, it wouldnt be possible.